After All This Time - Simon Webbe

After all, the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And though her heart, begs the stars
No sign of healing, it's all right
She's loving him still, after all this time.

Oh yeah

[Chorus]
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of it
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She ain't breaking, breaking, breaking
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time

Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time

And to the outside eye
You see you found a different guy
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
Coz she's loving him still, after all this time.

[Chorus]

After all this time
After all, after all, after all this time

Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And behind his tired eyes, she sees the boy with his arms wide

Who made her feel like an angel
Oh that's why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still
After all this time

Broken Arrow - Pixie Lott

What do you do when your hearts in two pieces?

You feel great but you torn inside

You feel love but you just cant embrace it

When you found the right one at the wrong time?

~Pixie Lott - Broken Arrow

justired

It was 3 am in the morning and i just got home.

Seharian pergi, ke gereja, main sama temen, makan, shopping, dan ngabisin waktu ngobrol random di kedai milk tea sama seorang teman sampai jam 3 pagi.

Then I got home.

Then I miss him.

Then I listened to this song: Officially Missing You

Then all those memories, all those feelings.. burst out.

Semua perasaan yang uda lama gw tahan, perasaan buat ga peduli, buat ga care, buat gamau tau sedikitpun tentang dia, perasaan bahwa gw kuat, bahwa gw bisa move on, bahwa gw bisa tanpa dia, bahwa dia cuma bagian dari masa lalu gw yang lama-lama juga bakal ilang, perasaan buat percaya bahwa segala sesuatu akan indah pada waktunya..

Semuanya runtuh dan lebur.

Tiba-tiba gw merasa lelah luar biasa.

I’m tired trying to be strong. I’m tired trying to keep moving on.

I’m tired of thinking and wishing and hoping for something that is not meant to be.

Gw takut sampe kapanpun, gw gabakal bisa ngilangin perasaan ini. Gw takut gw ga bisa sayang sama orang lagi segitunya gw sayang sama dia. Gw takut. Gw takut gw ga bisa, bukan gw gamau.

Because after all this time I tried, I always come back to where I start.

Because for the first five minutes of everyday it's still him that cross into my mind. Then I realize, every time that I wake up, I'm just becoming more and more a part of his past, a part that will never last. 

It was 3 am.

When I finally cried. 

I cried like a baby. 

I cried and cried and cried and cried, until I fell asleep.

Irrelevant

Irrelevant

Let's start at the end
Becoming strangers once again
Or maybe that's all we ever were
Do you know how it feels
To crave a body made of steel
To give your all for no return

'Cause I've been running marathons
While you're still standing still
And I'd be anything for you
But I'll never fit the bill

'Cause I'm irrelevant
You'll be fine without me
And it's evident, it shows
And in your excellence
I forgot I used to have my own
You won't even notice that I'm gone

You consume my thoughts
I'm not sure that I'm in yours at all
Your mind is too far gone to see
The worst part of it all
Is that I desperately still want
Someone who never wanted me

'Cause you've been burning bridges while
I've been building homes
And I'm only your everything
When you feel alone
'Cause I'm irrelevant
You'll be fine without me
And it's evident, it shows
And in your excellence
I forgot I used to have my own
You won't even notice that I'm gone

Are the days that I'll cling to you
Throw me to the lions and start anew
And who the hell are you
For the hell you've put me through

yep, it's just like it. you and me.

TLC - 20 January 2013

Setelah sekian lama, akhirnya hari ini dengerin siaran si penyiar favorit : NarendraPawaka, dan tema siarannya dia kali ini bikin NYES banget. 

"Let Go of The Past? Gimana caranya merelakan? Simple, dengan memaafkan. Dan kalau mantan menutup diri banget, bukankah itu anugerah? Biar lo bisa cepet move on dan ga perlu lagi inget-inget masa lalu? Hidup itu ke depan, Saudara. Kadang kita ngeliat ke belakang buat ngerasa cukup dan bersyukur". 

Ah, Eda.


Yes.
I dont wanna fall another moment into your gravity. Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be. (Gravity-Sara Bareilles)

Hujan

Hujan selalu melahirkan sendu
Tetesannya seiring rindu
Pada dirimu
Yang tak lagi mampu
Tuk kugenggam tanganmu erat
Atau peluk dirimu hangat

Hujan hanya menyisakan kenangan
Tentang angan yang tak pernah menjadi nyata
Antara aku dan dirinya

~dalam hujan, kala aku mengingatmu :)

Sisterhood of Travelling Pants 3 - Estafet Puisi

Hhmm, jadi tema Sisterhood of Travelling Pants 3 ini adalah "Estafet Puisi".
And since gw yang mengusulkan, jadi gw nih yang akan memulainya.

Oke.
Let's give it a try.


Aku tau mengapa langit malam sering menangis
Karena ia iri pada langit biru
Yang selalu bisa memeluk matahari
Yang mendekap erat, memberi hangat 

Oke.
Cukup sekian. Lempar ke callmenic.blogspot.com!

:)

Sisterhood of Travelling Pants Part 1

Ah yaa, lebih baik gw post juga disini, postingan "Sisterhood of Travelling Pants" versi gw Monic Dennyz dan Ferninda. Tulisan ini pernah gw post di tumblr gw (http://upilmaripil.tumblr.com), tapi gpp post disini sekalian aja, biar lebih gampang jga buat komunikasi sama Nic Nyz Nda yang semuanya punya blogspot juga. :)

Hai! 

Tulisan ini dibuat untuk mereka yang ga pernah ninggalin gw disaat gw susah maupun senang! :’D

Post pertama dari program nya si Nda- Sisterhood of Travelling Pants, bertema: 10 things i hope to achieve by the age of 30.

So, here we are:

1) Find my someone special, get married and live happily ever after, with a beautiful daughter and a handsome son.

2) Backpacking or travelling around the world. Europe especially.  

3) Pengen bisa masak 

4) dan bisa menguasai another language (Korean maybe)

5) Pengen ke Lourdes sekeluarga

6) dan semoga, by the age of 30, hubungan gw sama Tuhan udah jauh lebih baik dari sekarang (punya iman yang lebih kuat dan keintiman dengan Tuhan yang lebih dalam)

7) Pengen rutin punya/ikut kegiatan sosial (terutama mungkin yg berhubungan dgn anak-anak)

8) I want to spend another sweet escape with my girls (Nda, Nic, Nyz) before any of us get married.

9) uda punya cukup modal buat bikin usaha (entah punya TK atau punya cafe sendiri)

10) gw pengen muter2 theme park! Disneyland, Warner Bross, dan pengen bungee jumping, pengen parasailing, rafting, caving, hiking! :’D 

sekian mimpi2 saya. semoga bisa terwujud semuanya. :D

Nah, edisi kedua "Sisterhood of Travelling Pants" ini udah ada, cuma gw belom bikin, hahahah karena temanya adalah: Apa resolusi 2013 mu yang paling berhasil?

Okaay laah, soon to be published yah! :D

Pacar dan Gadget

Jadi ceritanya, tulisan ini dibuat atas hasil keisengan otak gw dua hari lalu kala gw memutuskan untuk membeli gadget baru.

Dua hari lalu gw mau beli gadget baru. Bingung antara mau beli android atau IOS. IOS itu harganya mahal, gengsinya tinggi, tapi buat gw pribadi kantong lumayan ngejerit-jerit liat harganya. Android, emang gengsinya ga setinggi IOS, secara handphone Android itu bertebaran dimana-mana. Tapi, dengan harga yang relatif lebih murah, gw bisa dapet Android dengan spesifikasi yang ga kalah dari IOS.

Nah, kalo beli gadget diibaratin milih pasangan, begini filosofinya :
Hati sih pengennya tetep IOS. Bagus, berkelas, mahal, gengsinya tinggi. Ibarat nyari pasangan juga mau nya kan pasti yang ganteng tajir keren mapan baik. Sama kaya nyari gadget, maunya gadget yang camera nya belasan megapixel, bisa nyemplung ke air, bisa ini bisa itu, pokoknya fitur-fitur paling canggih deh!

Tapii, pada akhirnya kita toh harus nyari yang paling sesuai sama kita kan?
Kalo emang kenyataannya kita belum mampu beli gadget yang mahal, buat apa dipaksakan? Gadget yang spesifikasinya paling canggih sekalipun dan harganya selangit belum tentu cocok sama kita. Sama, kaya pasangan yang kelihatannya perfect belum tentu bakal cocok sama kita. Yang paling penting dari semuanya adalah nyari pasangan yang paling bikin kita nyaman kan? Nah, kalau nyatanya yang ganteng, tajir, keren, dan mapan ga bisa bikin kita nyaman, buat apa juga dipaksakan?  Dan nyari gadget pun harus pinter-pinter milih, yang spesifikasinya pas tapi harganya juga bikin kantong seneng toh?

:)

Waktu gw panjang lebar ceritain filosofi-filosofian "Pacar vs Gadget" ini ke temen-temen gw, komentar mereka begini kira-kira:
Kalo kata temen gw: "Beli N*kia aja, Pril! Aku 12 tahun pake N*kia!"
Lalu temen yang lain menimpali: "Ibarat pacar, N*kia itu tahan banting, tapi dia ga tau gimana caranya menyenangkan hati wanita yang selalu berubah-ubah ini. Wkwkwkkwkw"
Trus ada yang tanya: "Kenapa ga beli S*msung aja, Pril? (kebetulan Android yang gw beli memang bukan merk tersebut)
Dan tanggapan gw: "Ahh, ibarat pacar, S*msung itu tipe pacar yang pasaran, yang terlalu mainstream, ibarat anak band, ga suka gue tipe anak band!"

Wkwkwkwk dan begitulah kira-kira filosofi ngalor ngidul "Pacar vs Gadget" tersebut berakhir.

"Hi, gw April."

"Hi, gw April.

Dan, hmm, gw selalu bingung mencari postingan yang tepat buat dipajang di awal sebuah blog.

Oke, jadi sekian.

Terimakasih!"

*senyum manis*